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Saturday, July 9, 2005
exhausted and confused
The last time I wrote, I discussed for-profit organization and the change that the non-profit sector has had on me. I jumped the gun, I was half-cocked, I didn't see it all for what it was.
The right non-profit with the right management and right leadership can go far in this world. It can do many things and make a huge difference and stretch for miles in the minds of the people it serves.
Without those elements, it seems that a non-profit is awesome at merely crushing those who try to save it and who try to believe in a message that has been garbled by poor judgement. Something that was lost along the way.
I had myself, briefly. I knew who I was. Then I allowed myself to be broken and now I don't know where to start. I am slowly picking myself up and assessing the damage (which seems to go much deeper than I first realized). I hope that soon I can figure out what it is I am doing, and who I am. I thought I knew. I had a pretty good idea.
Hopefully I can get that back and step forward again instead of wavering with uncertainty. Hopefully soon I can do what it is I need to do ... as soon as I figure out what that is.
11:36 p.m.

to do.
comics
when I am king.
red meat.
penny arcade.
angst technology.
lethal doses.
bobbins.
scary go round.
goats
sluggy freelance.
plugin boy.
shaw island.
exploitation now.
8-bit theatre.
avalon.
jeremy.
clan of the cats.
college roomies from hell.
cool cat studio. lowbright.
pvp online.

weblogs
waferbaby.
mike.
japes.
metagrrrl.
eric.
christopher 1 and 2.

other stuff
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memepool.
fray.
the onion.
explodingdog.
untitled.
seanbaby.
kolyana.